Calories eaten today

Breakfast
100 calories - a large bowl of oatmeal diluted with water and milk

Lunch
350 calories - calories in dim sum can only be roughly estimated. I only order vegetarian items or ones or regular items but scrap out the meat.

Dinner
350 calories- 4 egg whites, 1/3 serving of pork and cooked vegetables

Total calories today:
800

Are models just naturally thin or starving?

They are both.

I am naturally thinner than most, but I'm still a starving wreck. I blame no one but myself and my choice of occupation.

When I first started modeling, I was 15 years old. I weighed 92 pounds at 4'10" (I'm a petite model).

This is what I was told by the agency after the first round of interviews: "You need to lose at least 10 pounds."

I did. I exercised and starved. I continued to go to school and spent all my time studying or exercising - anything to not eat.
My parents were proud. I was "fashionably thin" and I scored very well in my exams.
I was anorexic and constantly suicidal, but seeing the proud faces of my parents, I could not let them down. I know they love me only because I'm a perfectionist.

I am now 18 years old and still 4'10". I weigh 85 pounds.

"Naturally thin" is not enough nowadays, even for a model. The competition in this field is tough.

Calories eaten today

Breakfast
40 calories - coffee with a bit of milk and Splenda sugar substitute

Lunch
100 calories - a steamed cucumber with soy sauce, a large bowl of vegetable broth

Dinner
300 calories - 2 steamed crab legs and a head of lettuce with 2 bowls of chicken broth

Today's total:
340 calories

Welcome to my blog

I am Persephone Mader, a UK born fashion model now based in Canada.
I will not reveal my true name to protect myself, my family, and my employer and modeling agency.

Modeling is the life and death of me. I am writing this blog to tell others what life is really like for a fashion model.

I started modeling at age 15. I am now 18 years old.
My BMI is currently 17.8. Whether you feel repulsed by this or encouraged to adapt an anorexic life, I am not here to judge.

I am here to tell all those who wish to read about the life of a model.